Repost 21st

Thank you all for attending my 21st birthday party (: 

Thank you my boyfriend for insisting to hold one. Stating that 21st is important...

Thank you for all the hard labour that you had to do that day for me (: 

Thank you for always being by my side when I need you . 

Ahhhhh, 

I can never thank you enough !

Anyway, I held my birthday party at my uncle's house..

Food initially I wanted to order buffet but in the end my grandma wanted to cook..

So all food was home made! 

So my cost was kept to the minimum.. 

Ok maybe not. I spend quite a lot wasting on decorations I didn't use :x

Anyway photos of that day!! 

Thank you to all that came and thanks for the presents (: 

Food for thought

 http://thoughtcatalog.com/kelsey-hau/2014/10/why-i-hope-my-ex-was-a-once-in-a-lifetime-kind-of-love/

 Why I Hope My Ex Was A Once-In-A-Lifetime Kind Of Love 

Yesterday I ran into a friend I hadn’t seen in awhile. As we did our quick five-minute catch-up, she asked me how my ex was doing. After I did my well rehearsed polite response, “Actually we aren’t together anymore, so I am not entirely sure,” she gave me the immediate look of sadness and sympathy that I always get. I’m well used to that look, I guess that’s what happens when the man you thought you were going to marry breaks up with you, but after giving me “the look,” she told me that she knows I’ll find someone new and I will love him just as much, if not more. Her words, meant to make me feel better about being single, really got me thinking.

I hope she is wrong. I hope I never find someone I love as much as him.

I don’t say that because I am a cynic, and I don’t say that because I hope we get back together. I say that simply because the love I shared with him was too much for me. It was raw, it was passionate, it was all-encompassing, it was emotional, it was everything. He was the first thing I thought about in the morning and the last thing I thought about at night. I felt incomplete when I wasn’t around him, and when he was near it was like everything was right in the world again. He was my other half, and what I considered the best part of myself. He made me crazy and emotional. It was like our entire time together was a roller coaster of missing him, loving him, hating him, and needing him.

And I pray to God I never ever feel that way again.

I hope my ex was the love of my life because I never want to feel that kind of love again. I had it for three years. It changed my life and it is something that I will cherish for the rest of forever. I found that kind of love young and I loved every minute of being in it. Even when we were fighting and I hated him, I loved it. But I never want to feel it again. That kind of pain and hurt mixed in with such passionate love was too much for me. It was too much for my heart to handle and when he decided to leave me, I didn’t understand how the world would keep turning.

But it did keep turning, and one day the ache in my chest stopped hurting and all the broken little pieces of my heart and soul seemed to be put back together. That’s when I realized I don’t need that kind of love or that kind of life. It’s not that I don’t want to fall in love again. I can’t wait to fall in love again, but I hope and pray it is a very different kind of love.

I don’t want someone to be my other half, I want someone who makes me feel whole on my own. I don’t want to miss someone so much it hurts, I want to know that even when I am apart from him I can trust him and know that he is coming home to me. I don’t want him to be my last thought when I go to bed at night because I want him to be beside me when I go to bed at night. I don’t want him to be the best part of me, I want him to encourage me and push me to be the best self I can be on my own. I want a partner. I want someone I can rely on 24 hours out of the day, seven days a week. I want a love that makes me smile and go to bed completely content with my life, not one that keeps me up at night. I don’t want a man who treats me like a princess and the most precious thing in the world, I want him to treat our daughter like that. I don’t want to be the love of his life because I want our family to be.

My ex taught me more about love and life than he will never know. After the break up my friends always told me that he would never find someone who loved him quite like I did. They said it to make me feel better, but I hope the same is true for him, too. We were young and naive and loved being in love, but it was the wrong kind of love. I hope it was a once in a lifetime kind of love for the both of us, and I hope one day we both find a better, more whole kind of love.

Three months going on four

Have only been like 3 months++ since i officially got into a relationship with L.

Feels like it has been so long , and like I have known him for years 😁 

I can never stop loving this guy. 

Although we have our disagreements at times. He just pours out his feelings and ask for my feelings too... 

So we usually just talk through our unhappiness or our feelings ...

 

No quarrels still 😁😁 so it's a good thing I guess! 

Kinda feel like age is catching up, because from the start of our relationship it is like already somehow considered that we are dating with marriage in mind. In Japanese there is a term: 

結婚(けっこん) 前提(ぜんてい) の付き合い(つきあい).  

In the past,I  didn't even think of marriage when I got into a relationship. 

I just got in because I like/love the guy. 

And after being together , I started thinking " maybe this is the guy I wanna marry?"

Well, the guy proved that he wasn't the one I was gonna marry though. 

Anyway back to L, my parents (especially my dad )likes him, Japan grandparents likes him and singapore grandma loves him (because he is heng hwa and he gave her orhcai) 

Blessed to find someone that my family accepts! Especially the three most important guy in my life 😁😁

My dad, my Japan grandfather and my brother ☺️☺️

We both never thought that we will date someone older/ younger by 5 years.

I somehow set a maximum age of 3 years gap for my boyfriend...

However, this L really make me feel that age is just a number.

If you told me age is just a number in the past , I will be like : " pls laaaa. 5 years leh. Damn old sias. Cannot. Only 1-3 years difference then I ok. " 

 

Now I am like basking in love with this guy who is 5 years older with me. 

Haha , well. 

We can click because his mental age is like 18 laaa. 

Anyway enough of my love story. 

Just wanted to remind myself of how fortunate I am to have him. 

And to stop comparing with what other people do for their girlfriends!!! 

Glad to have a boyfriend that always make me laugh. 

Every single day. 😘😘😘

21st

A huge thank you to all those who came down to my party.
Thank you for the presents too (:

Can never express how grateful I am to have all of you in my life.
Thank you for somehow shaping me into who I am now.
Thank you for accepting such a crazy girl as your friends :p

I may not be the sweetest, prettiest and nicest friend anyone can have.
But you all still treat me so nice <3

got to thank my boyfriend too <3
really thank you for all the effort you put in.
Love you to the moon and the back.
Grateful for your existence in my life...

Haven been blogging much...
Cause I need to finish my assignments.. Due date is like on the 9 & 10.
Lucky for me , I completed the one due on the 10...
Rushing for the 9th one...

Birthday celebration to be held on the 5th.
Too many things to plan and do.
Initially wanted to order my buffet....
But.......
Super grandma stepped in.
Insisting that buffet food sucks and asked if I needed her help to cook.
So my initial plan of ordering buffet was cancelled.
And my relatives are cooking for me (Y)
Am cooking 3 dishes myself too!

Guess it's better this way.
Saved up on hotel or chalet, as I am holding it in my uncle's terrace house.
Saved up on buffet, as my relatives are cooking for me.
Saved up for cake... initially wanted to order a $500 one...
Now downgrade to $180....
I don't have much expectations in the cake , TBH.
But ... just a cake mah.
Don't find the need for buying an expensive one.

Anyway Japan grandparents are coming over from 3-11Oct.
Which also explains why I have to rush my assignments all by this week.

Oct 4 am gonna decorate the place with dexter, charmaine, eunice and ysoon...
Oct 5 cook and then partyyyy.
Oct 6 out with family and Jap grandparents , magic show at night with the boy, family and jap grandparents...

Am kinda sad that Charmaine can't make it for my party..
Don't want Eunice to feel awkward so told her not to come too...
Jeremy and Bella is working on that day too , so sadly they cant make it too ):

Well, guess we can still meet up on other days....
So .....