"Our job as humans is to hold on to the thoughts of what we want, make it absolutely clear in our minds what we want, & from that we start to invoke one of the greatest laws in the Universe, & that's the law of attraction. You become what you think about most, but you also attract what you think about most."
- John Assaraf.
YAHUI
Just a half-Jap, born in USA; living in Singapore
I don't care if people knows about my constant struggle in relationship because who doesn't?
And I am not scared to share it.
I don't hide, my imperfections and struggles are what defines me.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
Living up to expectations
I am tired.
Tired of living up to everyone of your expectations.
Yea, disturb me call me dumb and all.
I know you're just joking.
But behind those jokes, it is your impression on me.
Am i so good to be bullied or tease?
All my groups of friends, apparently I am the one always being teased.
I don't know why?
I am being my real self.
Being shot down by you all, I just brush it aside.
Why always me?
Just being moody and tired of always being the victim.
I am not fine although i look fine
Tired of living up to everyone of your expectations.
Yea, disturb me call me dumb and all.
I know you're just joking.
But behind those jokes, it is your impression on me.
Am i so good to be bullied or tease?
All my groups of friends, apparently I am the one always being teased.
I don't know why?
I am being my real self.
Being shot down by you all, I just brush it aside.
Why always me?
Just being moody and tired of always being the victim.
I am not fine although i look fine
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Ex
They are your freaking ex for a reason.
You don't go around f-king msging your ex when they have already moved on with another girl.
Tolerate your stupid attention seeking attention from the beginning of my rs with him.
You msg him even when you have a boyf .
You want relationship advice? GO CONSULT A PSYCHOLOGIST OR WHAT
pay a f-king fee , don't msg your ex.
What did you say when he broke up with you?
" Good, I no need to sleep at the living room anymore"
If you are not happy being with him when he is poor, what rights do you have to come back now and talk to him.
Already scolded you that time telling you not to msg him every special occasion to remind him of your prescence.
Now you did it again.
Hello, his birthday coming he excited or not excited, is any of your f-king business?
YOU HIS GIRLFRIEND AH?
you want to be you be la, tell me, i will leave.
Let you have him to yourself all you want.
Cause I don't like to share.
& to you if you are reading,
I am disappointed.
Not once, not twice, not thrice
I don't know how many f-king times i repeat the same thing
telling you not to delete or not to reply your ex girlfriends messages.
Really losing trust.
Gain trust and not lose trust.
Maybe living in denial will be better.
I shouldn't care anymore, maybe leaving and being alone will be better.
You really disappoint me big time.
Why do I cry?
Cause the trust I have in you got shattered again.
The trust that I had.
The trust that you fought for.
I think it means nothing to you now.
You don't go around f-king msging your ex when they have already moved on with another girl.
Tolerate your stupid attention seeking attention from the beginning of my rs with him.
You msg him even when you have a boyf .
You want relationship advice? GO CONSULT A PSYCHOLOGIST OR WHAT
pay a f-king fee , don't msg your ex.
What did you say when he broke up with you?
" Good, I no need to sleep at the living room anymore"
If you are not happy being with him when he is poor, what rights do you have to come back now and talk to him.
Already scolded you that time telling you not to msg him every special occasion to remind him of your prescence.
Now you did it again.
Hello, his birthday coming he excited or not excited, is any of your f-king business?
YOU HIS GIRLFRIEND AH?
you want to be you be la, tell me, i will leave.
Let you have him to yourself all you want.
Cause I don't like to share.
& to you if you are reading,
I am disappointed.
Not once, not twice, not thrice
I don't know how many f-king times i repeat the same thing
telling you not to delete or not to reply your ex girlfriends messages.
Really losing trust.
Gain trust and not lose trust.
Maybe living in denial will be better.
I shouldn't care anymore, maybe leaving and being alone will be better.
You really disappoint me big time.
Why do I cry?
Cause the trust I have in you got shattered again.
The trust that I had.
The trust that you fought for.
I think it means nothing to you now.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Everything about love
Somethings just got me thinking.
Why do people judge when a 20 year old dates a 42 year old.
People always say love is blind.
So shouldn't you accept that the girl/guy is together because they love each other & not because of monetary purpose?
Everyone used to have a crush on someone older ( Teacher, brother & etc),
at that innocent age, we just wanted to play with that guy.
Just have him praise us & we will be smiling like idiots.
Did we bother that they were too old, that they were related?
I don't know.
We were naive, and those are the days in life that life was enjoyable and carefree.
If only we can remain naive and innocent in the area of love.
Just in the area of love will be enough to make the world be a better place.
Why do people judge when a 20 year old dates a 42 year old.
People always say love is blind.
So shouldn't you accept that the girl/guy is together because they love each other & not because of monetary purpose?
Everyone used to have a crush on someone older ( Teacher, brother & etc),
at that innocent age, we just wanted to play with that guy.
Just have him praise us & we will be smiling like idiots.
Did we bother that they were too old, that they were related?
I don't know.
We were naive, and those are the days in life that life was enjoyable and carefree.
If only we can remain naive and innocent in the area of love.
Just in the area of love will be enough to make the world be a better place.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Are we taking things for granted?
Sometimes whatever you do/ say makes me feel that you are taking me for granted.
Especially yesterday.
Disappointed and all, didn't msg you.
Not a single concern.
I don't know, it just doesn't feel the same anymore.
No reply cause you are watching video and still dare to say you are lazy to reply.
Home, i replied, you didn;t msg me .
cause you were playing dota.
During work, you can't msg much, i understand.
After work, you tell me you are tired.
I don't know what to react or what to feel.
Can you teach me how am i suppose to feel?
Cause all I feel now is disappointment and neglected.
Especially yesterday.
Disappointed and all, didn't msg you.
Not a single concern.
I don't know, it just doesn't feel the same anymore.
No reply cause you are watching video and still dare to say you are lazy to reply.
Home, i replied, you didn;t msg me .
cause you were playing dota.
During work, you can't msg much, i understand.
After work, you tell me you are tired.
I don't know what to react or what to feel.
Can you teach me how am i suppose to feel?
Cause all I feel now is disappointment and neglected.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
& I can never thank god enough for putting you into my life.
Boyf called me yesterday around 2.45am.
I got a shock cause I thought it was my alarm!
In the end, it was him.
Picked up the phone thinking what the hell happen.
& he just told me :"open the door"
Headed to open the door, and he passed me my wallet.
Apparently I have forgotten it at his house.
& he still came all the way just to pass me cause he worry that without my wallet I can't go anywhere.
Dear, you really surprise me time and time.
Although you do a lot of fucking cock up stuffs.
You are still amazing.
Thank you for making me realize how great a boyf you are again (:
Boyf called me yesterday around 2.45am.
I got a shock cause I thought it was my alarm!
In the end, it was him.
Picked up the phone thinking what the hell happen.
& he just told me :"open the door"
Headed to open the door, and he passed me my wallet.
Apparently I have forgotten it at his house.
& he still came all the way just to pass me cause he worry that without my wallet I can't go anywhere.
Dear, you really surprise me time and time.
Although you do a lot of fucking cock up stuffs.
You are still amazing.
Thank you for making me realize how great a boyf you are again (:
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